My Father Worries War is Coming
He practiced nonviolence outside the home. I may doubt the purpose of the back of a hand
now, but he worked as a mechanic and took a wire brush to the soft palms that held night dark.
Sundays he tucked slicks of soy sauce into scrambled eggs, still the softest I remember. How
electrified I felt when he brought two fists to my face listen and the song of caught
crickets. How could they know who was listening? Why I insist on clapping soft. I let my steel
bite my skin into callous but when the promise of integrity breaks it still
surprises delights? me to remember blood runs hot when it wants to run.
Listen, no hand keeps all the light out. Winter touches every branch.
What can we want? Now. To be held as the body holds breath.
Smoke in the kitchen. Impatience choking up the bedroom, sweat slicking down the elbow’s crook.
Once you flooded out my sink with empties, with defrost, and spoons that fed me honey
and you something sweeter. What is the world if not for wanting? I admit I’ve wanted your picked-at
scab, a broken voice through a morning-night call. Breakfast hours later. And what I want now is a sliver
caught between my teeth. Butter and bite. Fire in my mouth. A whole field alight.
Eric Tran is a resident physician in psychiatry in Asheville, NC and also received an MFA from UNC Wilmington. Eric’s debut, the Gutter Spread Guide to Prayer won the 2019 Autumn House Press Rising Writer’s Prize. Eric’s work appears in Iowa Review, Poetry Daily, Poetry Northwest, and elsewhere.